Hang there Chris!!! I don't know you but I know of your work and contributions. I grew the CP 115's this year. Although not the same I am a cancer survivor and never once did I not think I was gonna not beat the big C. Was I worried? Of course. I went to my doctor for what we thought and what seemed like a kidney stone. I walked out with cancer. That was a rough day. Sitting in the chemo chair for 6-8 hours was quite the drag. Luckily I had friends to watch movies with and I surfed the web following my beloved Chiefs. That was about the time I discovered the amazing scorpion pepper and I was on a quest to grow them so my friend who couldn't find anything too hot for his liking would finally sweat. Once again hang in there!