Sorry about it being bad like that. My marriage started out like a fairy tale, then morphed into a horror story very quickly. We were way too young to be getting married like that, but the resulting mess fucked me up so bad i doubt highly i could survive that kind of emotional destruction again. Thats why i'll probably never get married again.
Oh, and i'm going to e-mail you some christmas music(lounge style), i think(hope) you might dig it. It'll be coming from yousendit.com