Thanks Pablo, i appreciate your comments. Yes i spend all my spare time on it and my business.It is just soul crushing to have all this happen and all because I got one bad batch of seed off someone.
It took me over 3 hours the other day just undoing all the systems and bleaching and putting back together then It takes me like a day just to treat and plant 50 seeds, cos I could only do so much until I was needed. I only had 3 hours of broken sleep last night(1hr was the longest period) and my newborn has only slept for 45mins today and seems to be in a lot of pain so it is hard to get things done as I can't put him down much and i still have to get housework done. So yeah its hard.
Hopefully I can get around to doing a new batch but it is really getting late now and not much seed left

Now was the time to prove that it's all worthwhile and that I could do this as full time work and not work for someone else.
I don't want to give up but I'm thinking i should just skip this season, it has really gotten off to a terrible start, twice now...