Oh yeah so would I lose my job if I was too far that way, I just meant that you don't always have to get so worked up about problems that you can't think straight, I still do but not so much, I think it's more an issue with staying calm with me and at the end of the day thinking I'm going home, OK, I have the shit to deal with after 5 hours sleep when I get back to work in the morning. I also know that the next day I will see Con for more than a 5 minute conversation so I think about that.